Retail Therapy

well i've MIA for some times due to the heavy shoppings i'm under-going currently. this is how a SHOPAHOLIC looks like. the pictures above were some randomly picked out of tons of piccas! woohoo~ this is the way you *SHOP TILL YOU DROP*

a letter to you

i know its never been an easy thing for someone to let go....

'LETTING GO TAKES LOVE'

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means you can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.

To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.

To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more

Remember: The time to love is short

I too hope you can find your own truly happiness with your another half =)

Secret Recipe for lasting love

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person BUT; its learning to love the person you found!

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It will NEVER just happen to you. You can't find LASTING love. You have to MAKE it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression 'the labour of love'. Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM.

You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner) to succeed with your relationship.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe, there are also laws for relationships.

Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger,

Certain habits in your relationship WILL make your relationship stronger.

It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws. The results are predictable...

You can MAKE love. Love in a relationship is indeed a DECISION... Not just a feeling.





Remember this always:
'God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, Who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

LOVE

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种.
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

ZELLENT

i would to take this oppurtunity to my dearest friend's name on my blog.
this post is specially dedicated to one and only ZELLENT.
happy 19th birthday.
*wow* big boy already. tee hee =D

My wishes for you:
*Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
*Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.
*Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.
*Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage.



the chocked point here is, when you're feeling lonely, I make sure i'm there for YOU! =D



enjoy mate~

Gathering

Had a gathering with high school mates and teachers.

It's just amazing how "grown up" we feel, comparing to the days we had a year back. Thinking about the many years ahead of us, a long journey awaits us. In the near future, we'd probably be looking back, feeling that we've grown even more than what we are today. Life's a journey--an unpredictable one.

Who ends up with who?
Who gets the better job?
Who earns the bigger bucks?
Who got the highest qualifications?
Who will be the first to migrate?
Who's second? Then, who's third?

Sad, but true--this is reality.

It's been only almost a year since we set out on our own journey. A journey that taught us what reality was all about. So much happened. We've all grown to realize how cruel yet beautiful life could be. Still spending time (although a lot lesser) with the same faces, just only with a more matured perspective in life. Within these days, we've all written our own story, made our own footprints, wrote our own 'chapter' and in the many years to come, will finish our now, 'unwritten book'.

I've been thinking a lot about the future lately. It happens everytime a major change happens in any one of our lives. There's so much more to learn, so much more to explore, so much more to experience. I wonder if we'd still have the chance to sit and talk about our 'past' in the future. I wonder what awaits us.

i really do miss high school times very much despite all the bitches business
which is the re run of SSS in Sunway now
i know..
sad thing
sigh..

some people just aren't happy.
nothing is ever good enough.
always quick find fault you do
and share it with anyone that will listen.

they whisper behind your back and
humiliate you so they could make
you embarass.

the only happiness they know
is when others hurt or fail.

they try to defeat you in many ways.
they seem to thrive on it.

it somehow makes them feel a
little better about their own
miserable lives..

but i will live stronger....

yes...some people just aren't happy...

i call these people HATERS..JEALOUS..LIFELESS..

Dont judge me, reading this blog. Dont call me emo. Im not. Im just feeling down. It's because of you people, people like us suffer, hiding all our sorrows and pain just so you people dont feel affected by it. Stop complaining so much. Look in the mirror urself, you'll see me too.

This is my blog. I'll say all i wanna say. I'll bitch all i want. And there's nothing you can do but to shut the hack up!!

Oh yea, and bitch, i hope u rot in ur own sick bed and die alone. I hope you'll be in pain and misery for the rest of ur life. Being abandonned by people you love, one by one. And i hope one day, everyone knows how fucked up ur life is and all the lies you have told to cover up all ur pathetic stories. You'll be sorry for what you have done. Im just waiting. I aint gona do anything to you no more. Ur just a waste of time...

things left unsaid

How much do we really know about love? Each depending on their own interpretations. Well, mine's simple. Just the mental closeness and communication between 2 individuals is enough to define love. With that, you can go on to all the physical aspects of it. I feel that people put too much emphasis on love to make it more melodramatic. Love is what it is. Why give it a whole load of different interpretations to define its meaning? It's not like it's something so big, like in the movies, we see people finding it hard to simply tell someone that he/she loves her/him. It is what it is.

What is LOVE?
Love is YOU + ME and nothing else matters =)

I feel bummed. what is with guys and dota?



The creator of dota must be girlfriend-less because dota is the girlfriends’ new enemy.



grr.

Learning English through Porn

This post is strictly for ABOVE 18 ONLY. If you're underage, proceed, but make sure your mommy's away.

This is something I came across which i want to share with the others. Its an email i received from a friend. Porn in writing, (so called love novel). Now I get it why women love reading love novels.

A scene from the novel.

"He was removing her bra slowly, tugging it teasingly away from her very fleshy tits. Throwing her bra to the floor, he let his eyes touch her softly jutting breasts. Then standing back, he silently appraised them. She was wearing nothing but lust on her body and face. He could feel desire radiating from her glorious young body. He liked what he saw. Pulling her towards him, he ran his large hands up and down her body, stroking her soft girlish skin. Her eyes never left his body. And her lustfully body smelled of passion. He was looking directly at her huge ripe breasts, licking his lips in his erotic suggestive way. Then, reaching for her tits, he cupped the twin mounds of flesh. She looked down at her two rosy nubbins, fascinated with their enlarge size. They had never been that big before. And they never hurt as beautifully as they did right now. They were red and puckered and begging for attention. Ending her suffering at last, he brought his fingers to their huge and throbbing thickness, rubbing them softly. As he toyed with their turgidity, she gave a loud cry of pleasure."

• tugging it teasingly
• softly jutting
• silently appraised
• wearing nothing but lust
• desire radiating
• glorious young body
• soft girlish skin
• smelled of passion
• erotic suggestive way
• twin mounds of flesh
• rosy nubbins
• red and puckered
• throbbing thickness
• turgidity

Talking bout High Class Porn. Now this is something Malaysians should upgrade to. Then perhaps our English will improve.


p/s i'm sorry if this post offended anyone. its something i find it really hilarious. thats it x)

credits to Q

watch closely as i rip your heart out

1st ANNIVERSARY

to many people it may be just a date after all but it means a lot to me!
thou its only 12 months
but come to think about it we came a long way
and you may think its easy but i can tell you its not

in this time period, many things had happened
i treasure every moments when i'm with you

you're like a rainbow
you paint my life with all sorts of colours

you tought me the real meaning of love, care, share and many more
you made me believe in love once again
without you by my side
its like a flower without its petals

i just want you to know that you really means a lot to me

without you i have no direction in life anymore
we're still holding on
and still counting on

it will be a very long journey out there
and i dont wanna be out there without you
all i want is you to finish this journey with me

there is still lots of anniversaries coming for us!
muaaahhhh~

truly from the bottom of my heart i wanna say
[ I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEARTS ]

**you're the one and only one for me**

when we were small and christmas tree is tall

22 August

i attended my junior school gathering.
yeah.
junior school.
friends which i knew them since i was 7 years old!

this time was organised by kenndaeson.
thanks for organising it.
appreciate it alot!!


we had the gathering at the cowboy.
besides that its also a farewell for wilson as he is leaving to canada with the gf.
aww! how sweet~

kenn, wilson and i were the earliest to reach.
then came melissa, jeffrey, jin yuan, kah wei, callen, yeoh min, kah yee and arvin
too bad soon keon cant make it as he has badminton final the next day =(
siti, nurliana, aine and farah dinah cant make it too ><


meeting up them really got my mind thinking back about childhood times


our carefree life back then
innocent mind
running here and there
no worries at all
as thou life is so nice

i miss those days


now we are all so grown up

talking about what course you taking, what you wanna do next time etc.


everyone are busy with their hectic lifestyle
but still,
we will always try to make it a point at least have a gathering once a year


the last gathering was at mid valley organised by callen
it was a great outing!


i'm looking forward for kenn's open house party! =D

p/s will upload the pics once i get it from kah wei

lovely you.

That's right. Lovely me.
You will see me in all your tenses, past, present , future.
And you know what? you will try to run.
But I'm going to be a living, breathing reminder of ' what ifs'

awwwwww...

i'm sorry dear =(

i heart you

will you forgive me?

please say YES

this was what he did on monday. he made me mad since noon. i was so mad till i dont wanna talk to him. i kept ignoring him. i had my dinner at his house but still i didnt say a word with him. he seems alright and dont care at all most of all not admitting that he was wrong. till he went into the study room and wrote these lil messages on his hand by himself, then he showed them to me with his innocent and pity expression. at that moment, i felt 'awwww~' so sweet of him. whatever i was mad about i forgotten it right at that point. well thou its lil messages but it meant a lot to me. the thoughts it counts! he took the effort to make me happy. thanks dear! love you always. muuuaaahhh~

blurred then OMFG!!

thats how i felt on Sunday morning
i woke up as usual go check on my phone

guess what?!

i received a message from my dear Zellent sent in the morning 0403
saying 'Suprise!'

i was kinda blur maybe cos i just woke up from my beauty sleep

i remembered i save his m'sia number as Zellent and philipines number as Zellent =)

to my suprise,
its form zellent

i thought i was dreaming!

so i text him and asked
he said he is back in m'sia

OMFG!!

i'm so suprised!!!!!

ZELLENT,
you owe me big for giving me a heart attack early in the morning!!
you watch out!!

**gosh**

cant wait to meet you up along with my girls =)

highlight of the day **180708**

my dear hubby & i
miss pretty

p/s more pics to come

thanks DEAR!!

snow globe with sparkles. it plays out music too, 'PACHABEL'S CANON'

thanks my dear for everything you did for me!

i knew you had tried your best to give me the best

i really had the best birthday ever

mainly because you're there with me throughout the days

choosing you as my part of my life

it will never be a regret

you thought for days

squeezing your brain

just to get me the best gift

i know its hard for you cos i've almost everything

or what i want usually i can get it easily

but dear you made my day

by giving me a music snow globe!

i never even have one!

thanks for the flowers and dinnerSss too!

i know i've burnt a BIG hole in your wallet =P

people who made my 18th birthday a BLAST!

first of all definitely will be my parents.
then to the one who is very important to me, he filled me up with lots of love & care!

to those who attended my birthday bash...
babes that rock my world in college, my law mates/gossiper gang, the victims of accounting class, crazy dudes and besties.

to those who are not in M'sia...

SMSes, phone call and gifts..

LOTS of people i really wanna thanks. gosh!!

i love u guyz!!

18th Birthday : Part I

well actually i celebrated my birthday 3 days in a row.
my parents, darling and besties were like 'do you have to?'
**gosh**
lolz.
i threw a birthday bash on 18th July at LANGAT LOOK OUT POINT.
then on 19th darling and i went to Mariott Hotel for...
JAPANESE BUFFET!!
my favourite.
woohooooo~
on the exact day of my birthday,
darling brought me to BOSSA NOVA, PARKROYAL HOTEL for dinner.
they served really nice food.
haha.

long story short,
this was the best birthday i ever had so far.

the darling had accompanied me for 64 hours!
felt so blessed =D

and here i wanna say thanks for those who attended my party, giving me presents and lastly for wishing me on 12 sharp.

greater thanks to ZELLENT for calling me all the way form Philipines! and he was the lucky No. 1 to sms me happy birthday.

special thanks to my darling for planning everything for me. he got everything organised and gave me lovely suprises. **love&kisses**

million thanks to my beloved papa & mama. without them i will not be around in this wonderful place with wonderful people.

here i sincerely wanna say THANKS to each of everyone! =)


p/s photos will be uploaded soon as all pics are in ck's camera.
let the pics do the talking! =)

every bad things happened there is something good out of it

well due to my emo-ing thing
mean girls fighting

i'm always moody
even a tiny weeny thing can catch me on fire

caught in arguement with my darling
a small fight i can say

i cant stop crying
tears kept on flowing down

after all the bad things had happened
i'm happy that i got into this fight with my darling

it helps us strengthen our bond once more
little fight once a while is healthy in a relation

no
i dont mean encourage you people to argue

but trust me
it really helps

today i realised how important is he in my life
he plays an important role in my life

i loves him

but

after today i loves him even more
i loves him for who he is

being with him i'm very comfortable and relax
i am me

thanks dear for everything
you made my day today

sorry if i hurt you today
i dont mean it

i'm lucky to have you
i dont know how i go through all these without you being there for me

you're my everything

remember
i will always love you baby

ssssssssmmmmmmmmmoooooooooooocccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeessssssssssss!

mama's birthday

it was my beloved gorgeous mama birthday on 25th June.

we had dinner at ELCERDO, Jalan Ah Loy.

they serve spanish food ( non-halal )

mainly pork. they have lots of piggies pics as decoration.

its all about NOSE TO TAIL EATING ( thats what it written on the menu )

i never once had dinner which is all pork!

its delicious. i recommend you peeps go have a try.

i bet you wont regret.

first, creamilicious tomato was served. its so tasty. yum~

then pork salad. ya, it might sound weird BUT it taste GOOD.

after that we ate 'siew yuk'.

later its pork cutlets. man this was my favourite. i'll give 10/10.

the last dish was a roasted piglet. i pity the piglet =( thou its delicious~

*wow* didnt know those orang putih can cook pork so well.

they can beat those chinese fellas anytime.

i really enjoyed the dinner.

the restaurant has a tradition.

every table gets to throw and break 2 plates.

it means throw away all your bad lucks.

its mama birthday so she got to try.

hee =)

oh ya, before i forgot they served us desserts to.

really chun man.

its strawberry sorbet with strawberries and blueberries.

*gosh*

speechless.

its a wonderful meal =)

mama's birthday cake

the dessert

the sparkling candle ( end result )

check it out

birthday song

your LOVE keep me DROWNING!

I ADMIT..

every moment spent with you
its the moment i treasure

when you look into my eyes
you'll see what you mean to me

i love the way you stare into my eyes
showing me how much you care

i think of you every

second of everyday

you are my favourite

subject to talk about

when i hug you i wish i was

not allowed to never let go

i always get excited

when i get to see you

and i'm completely

totally

MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!

p/s too much to say about you dear. no words can express how i feel. hee =) like what michelle said, 'i'm lovestrucked to the MAX!!

a million little pieces =(

no words can describe how i feels now.
i'm sad and hurt deep down inside.
i'm so LOST. mixed feeling is all i can say now.

perhaps i really lack of love from you both.

dad,
i know you loves me,
whatever i want you always never fail to give it to me,
you try your best to give me all kinds of luxuries things.
you work hard so that i can live like a princess.
i really treasure it.
but sometimes besides all these,
i need some care and attention too.

mum,
you're always busy with stuffs.
i dont know what you're busy with.
perhaps i'm not important anymore.
i know i'm a big girl now.
but still,
i need you to be by my side.

i just wanted to say i'm not as strong like what you see.
i'm only 18.
i need love, care and attention too.
not only cash and material things only.

i'm always alone with the dog at home.
facing walls all by myself.
talking to belle and the air.
what a nice way to pass time.

i dont know how i long i can stand anymore.

i'm lonely =(

HAPPY DADDY"S DAY~

first, HAPPY DADDY"S DAY to all daddy-s (: well, its time to show your love and appreciation to your dad?! NOPE! to mean everyday is parents day which mean each day you've to treasure them. show them that you really care for them. say I LOVE U to them each day. who might knows that what if there's gonna be no tomoro. try spending quality time with your parents. without them who we are! to me, there are SUPER PARENTS. i've have the COOLEST dad and the most GORGEOUS, KIND & FUNKY mum in the world. and i really LOVE them!!! so cherish your parents while they are still here. make them feel loved.


p/s love u daddy. we've a BIG surprise for you! (:

Prnsez Zengie's Big Day

treasure the people around U

well watched KUNGFU PANDA today, a quote from the movie made me sit a while & think. it said yesterday is HISTORY, tomorrow is MYSTERY & today i GIFT, thats why its called PRESENT. most of us are alwiz too eager thinking abt what's happening & even what is going to happen. things alwiz don work like what we plan. just relax and enjoy every moment you have with those around you. whether good times or bad times. life is too short to get angry or frustrated. so com'on treasure them. tell them if you loved them, cos we will never know if we're still alive the next day. so dear (u know who u r) i realllllllllyyyyyy LOVE you much much =D

i HEART you..

it feels like we've been down the road very far. well, i know sometimes i lose my head easily on you, but i'm sorry dear i don mean it. all of the sudden i feels like writing down how i feel being wit u. being wit u is the BESTEST thing god gave me. it made me feel so good the 1st thing i see when i awake in the morning is U beside me. these 2 weeks hols was really fun cos we get to spend a lot of time together. love U dear =)

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still counting on..

happy hour~

off to neway sing k with whole family. its all great & nice. bt suddenly *pooof* there's power failure in cheras area! gosh. wtf >.< it kinda spoiled our mood. so kiddos were sent back home, we left for nxt round. we went to sky bar. had quite a few jugs. hmmm. well nt gonna say too much. a picture said a 1000 words. mwahaha XP

this was me before i got high

my sis started cam-whoring~

my engine was starting..

gosh. my face was soooo RED!

well, thats all for now. its 4.10 am. i really gtg & take a rest. i'm havin headache now. argh >.<>

why does this happen

i should master the art of that.

i am, once again, left angry and confused.
i never thought that i would be in this position,
where it may seem that i get things my way but, if you look closer, it's the other person that has been slowly manipulating everything you say until you yourself believe it's your fault.
i have now accepted the fact that i am at fault. but, i realized that * isn't as innocent as you i would've thought. i finally realized that i have been blaming myself, and for what? what do i get out of it? you never seem to be content with me. there is always something wrong somewhere.

i could've pointed out your mistakes but did i ?
did i say it to your face ?
if given a choice, i would never let you cry alone.
but how do you treat me?

like i'm this girl that you can ignore for as long as you want, and when you start missing me you come back to me. and when you think you dont need me anymore, you go running to your other so called ' girl ' friends.

i really i wish i had the guts to just leave you.
i cant believe i put myself all the way down there for you.
you wanted change, i gave you change.
and what do i get in return?
you leaving me.

ah, fuck you

im in the mood to bitch
zennie is best at bitching about anything if you want her to
well not bithcing, i tease better.
im good at teasing things.

hehe.

i dont expect anything

about how i just had to deal with the truth even when it keeps on repeating itself. how the truth hurts and when you think you can avoid it, you cant after a certain point. and i, am at that point.



i never really wanted to be this pessimistic but really, i always have second thoughts of people, not trusting them, knowing they will always have something to say about me. i would understand why though, being me, always having and creating shit. i got into this mess, i am in the process of getting out of it, but why must you act the way you do?



i promised myself to not talk bad things about you. because that would end up in me becoming you. or becoming the old me. i could never see things the way they were. denying everything that got into my way. blaming other people for my mistakes.



i admit, it was my mistake this time.



enough about all the complaints !






=)